Changes

No more voting poll. I am not asking anyone if I will marry you. I am currently debating myself where we are going to end up. I am getting bored of every single day. Nothing is happening in cooperation with my optimistic mood. Thanks to Ramadan that it is the time of smooth melody. I feel like letting the boat slowly sail towards you. My only wish is your survival. Mamas will talk in a couple of weeks, through the end of Ramadan. I hope it will be a happy ending for us. Otherwise, I am bored, I am very bored of this life happenings without you. I witnessed a lot of mistakes at work. It seems to be a picture of my relation to you. I will never treat you as my job is treating me. Trying to be someone while being nobody at work. Lots of misleading actions. I am ready to act. Yes, Ms.
I am ready to act, just curious about what is the next stepping stone to build my career. I guess my career will be shaped in relation to you. Without your mercy, nothing goes right.
I am dying, as if.
You used to tell me that you are dying.
Now, I am having that problem. I wish I could understand you better.
Now, I know.
I feel that it is an ongoing pain.
Shall it be no more.
Stop that please.
Where are you?
Why don't you believe that we can sit next to each other?
Muy difficil, muy bien.

Counting Down Times

As we are fasting during the day, the most important part is the time between 11-2pm I think.
I used to have lunch, and now it is not possible. Office work is not fun all the time. Though, I have lots of time to think. I am planning to come, and never leave. Yes, I am counting down the time as I am counting down the hours, minutes during the day to begin eating with the sun dawn.

My love, I hope you don't forget me. You didn't forget me for 4 years when I was away. I hope you don't forget me during these times. I don't want to put a measure on this time frame. edeude (this means my boss came to my office, today's timing was bad, I used to come to office and write to you in the early morning before working hours)
Anyways, time passes by, it is time to eat, well go home, and then wait for a few more minutes to eat..I love you darling, I really love you, I keep seeing your country's name...offfffffffffffffff...off

And the inner struggle begins

Yes, Ramadan begins. Inshallah I will hear good news from you through the end of this holy month. I am still acting positive, and hopeful. I am not cheerful, nor very optimistic. I just fell it that everything will inshallah be ok. I don't see any reason to live without you. I would why, I would ask Por Que!

Gracias mi amor, gracias.